I am sad now

Hi there,

I hope someday that someone will read this. I am so sad you know why.

As i sated in the morning today, i think she is totally hooked up with the other guy and probably more. So when I called her from out of office she never answered or called me back and I am so sad that I lost her again until she realize he is with him just to have sex.

This is so sad, I have this experience before when the the other guy hooked up with him and when she was so in love with him.

I am not sure what this life is telling me, it just sad and sad. trust me if I do not have this love I would have being so much and some once else than this. Even now I am drunk and do not know what I am feeling.

No matter what I do I remember her, even now I am watching a movie and there she comes into my mind and now I remember the things she did with other guys and doing the thing right now.

One day I will upload the sound tracks that I heard talking to another guy lovely and planning to go out with him and saw going out with him on the next day and heard saying I love you to him.

So you know how I feel now. I strongly believe that love should be taken off from this world and love only brings you pain with the girls and women in this world today.

This is totally wrong, that women is having all fun in this world and hooking up with every young guy she thinks is cool and forgetting me.

I think I also can hook up with other girls but my heart never let me do so, so comes first in my heart, there is something wrong with me. Any other guy can do this and the guys I know and my friends can do this, but I can't, i think because I truly lover her and she never care and she can do that.

Look I am so desperate I don't know what I should do. This life sucks and my love life has pain in the most of that part.

You know the magic in it, even now I still love her and she doesn't care, all she wants is love of another new young guy or her husband. I am just a looser.

Even now I want to get free and end my life which is more sensible thing, even if I leave the country I will have the same pain in my heart.

So I will get back to you tomorrow with another sad experience. I know when the time I step into the office I will see one of the things that makes me sad. But I still wanna see her face. I wish I could touch her like the way I did. :(

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