My Love that used to Be

When she was truly and madly in love with me, my life was so beautiful and never wanted to stop living.
The feeling was so much wonderful that I can not even explain in words.

Ever second I was only thinking about her and my life together. What ever I plan was only focusing our life together. When she holds me or when I hold her, nothing else matters. Every thing that i did even at my work was successful and I was focusing well.

• She defended me every second and liked what i did. (But these days she hates those same things, because she may be comparing me with some one else). 
• She never wanted to heart my feelings even by getting close to another guy. (These days she does it lot)
• When ever she is free or early in the office she calls me and check, even she knows that i am on the way.
• She got things and talk with me for hours on the phone until battery is dead. (barely calls or talk with me)
• I was active and always had thoughts to surprise her, even daily.
• When we are together, we only laughed did not fight.
• She understand me and when she does some thing wrong she don't argue with me but just polite (Now she does the thing and even ask me "Who I am to ask")
• I was the best guy in her life (Now just a stupid guy)
• Talked from the heart, don't wanted to get close to other guys. (Now totally opposite)
• Tell every single thing in her day today life (Today nothing only need to know things and lot of secrets)
• Plan things with me (Not with me, may be with another guy or husband)
• I was the best friend in her life. (Not me)
• When I call her, she answer the phone no matter whom she is with or on the line. (Now do not answer and some time do not even call back)
• Like to go out with me (Do not like, ignoring me)

You know, till today, i have not even think of anyone else even though she went out of the track many times and leaving me. yet, she tell things and try to make me uncomfortable.

Some times I think why she is not backward compatible. (Think as the other person and how he feels from her act, but when she thinks that I do what she does she get upset and i am doing some thing wrong, but when she do the same thing it is normal and questioning will be wrong and I have corrupted mind)

So now she tells these things to me
Used to say
We will be together forever, even in the next life.
I will love you always
What ever come we will find a ways out
You plan the thing, anything is possible

Now
When there is a meeting there is always separation, don't know how long that we will be together
People change as time pass by
Don't think like a child or stupid fellow
Are you a kid to think things like this.

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